16th June 2017,
Ordinary day as it sounds. But was not.
Today I was going to experience new things. Experiment a bit get an experience a bit.
All in a day! Tough for me because I have never been a welcoming guest to sudden changes and new surroundings.
Taking a deep breath, I finally step forward. Wait, I did it? Yes.
My favorite person wasn’t there with me after all. I have never stepped into a place without her. And I had to do it alone, this very time.
Anxiety was building up, just like pressure building up inside a volcano.
Well this guy made it easy for me. I was no more alone. His eyes kept me stable enough for me not to trip.
Yes, some moments were temporary illusions.
Yes, I felt lonely at times and that was written on my face, if someone could have noticed it.
I usually talk a lot, but I didn’t today.
As if my heart was captivated by the sound of his voice.
So a new experience, me not talking.
This guy who never has talked that much, was on top of everything!
As if he was leaving the other day and wanted to tell me about everything before he leaves.
It was a pleasure to be with him.
He made sure I wasn’t left alone. Not physically but there, inside you see.
He tried his best and I gave my best.
Thank to this kind soul.
We went to a new place, place which I had never visited. And being the victim of social anxiety I was a bit scared from inside. Only I had the courage not to show it.
So that was an experiment: How well I play with my own demons.
-Kriti Singhal
