On May 4th we received an email from her lawyer telling us that the DA was going forward with the case against her, there was a warrant out for her arrest. After conferring with the lawyer, Rara surrendered herself to the police on May 6th. She is currently in custody at the Orange County Jail with her bail set at $275,000. Her next scheduled court date is May 23rd. Up until this morning I’d had no contact and had no idea what was happening
The not knowing was brutal. I paced, but there was no room to pace. I over thought, driving myself crazy. I can see my cats on the edge of their own break down. They’re waiting for her to come home.
In front of me I have a sheet of paper thumb tacked to the wall. I’ve written down a list of the things I need to do. There is also a few reminders; a few tips and tricks to keep the depression from swallowing me whole. And I’ve had to write down my new rule: Double check all decisions, you may not be thinking logically. Because I know from the past that panic, fear, anxiety and depression can muddle the mind. The craziest things can start to make sense.
If you follow any of mine, or our mutual social medias, you might have seen me working. Trying to keep myself busy and productive. Although I fear I may have lost/overlooked some of your emails/comments; I apologize.
There have been so many people showing their support for us, I can’t begin to express my appreciation. But one major consensus amongst you is that there just aren’t any word. I certainly understand that feeling. I don’t want anyone to feel badly if they can’t find anything to say. In fact I don’t want anyone to feel badly about anything. Enjoy the weather, a good meal, laugh at a joke, watch your favorite TV show and live; it in no way diminishes what is happening here.
Rara says the jail isn’t as bad as she was expecting. The food however is inedible, consisting mainly of beef and sugary products. And inside, there’s a culture of not complaining or asking questions. She can however purchase food alternatives using an account. Through that she has to also buy all her hygiene products. She has one bunkmate, a pregnant woman and they are both locked in their cell for 22 hours a day. Mostly she’s bored, but she can receive mail. Simple letters only, with nothing in them (and they’ll be read by the guards). If you like you can mail them here:
Radhika Jaini booking number 2809240
Orange County Sheriff’s Department
550 N. Flower St.
Santa Ana, Ca. 92703
Hopefully the future finds us less daunted, and the past becomes far away. Thank you everyone for your support.
