I did it! I did it! Last week I did something that I never really thought I would do. Initially I never even considered doing it because It was not even an option. Once it became an option I thought about it but was not sure I'd feel confident enough to actually do it. I am talking about wearing a bikini. That's right, a two piece, and not a tankini either. I am talking about a midriff bearing bathing suit.
I wrote about the option to wear a bikini a few months ago. At that time I was undecided but appreciated that now this was an option for plus sized women. I like the idea that we don't have to hid ourselves at the beach and that we can tastefully even show off our curves. However, at that time I was not sure if I would actually take advantage of the option. Well not long after righting the post while shopping with my niece in Forever 21 I saw they had plus sized bikinis and at a reasonable price. I tried it on and bought one. The price was good, I think under $30 for both pieces) so I figured I'd get it just in case I got the never to wear it. If I never got the never, it would not be a big expense.
Last week I surprised myself and actually got the never to not only wear the bikini but to take my cover up off. I have never been afraid to wear a bathing suit at the beach but this bikini thing was definitely out of my comfort zone. I looked around the beach and realized most people don't look like models. Most of us have problem areas and such. No one has a perfect body so why should I be more clothed and hotter than everyone else while sitting on the beach.
So I did it. I took my cover up off!!! I admit I felt scared doing it. For a while I was even afraid to get out of my beach chair. But I did that too. I got up and actually walked from my beach chair out and into the water. I felt like the entire beach was watching me as I walked. I thought they were staring at my stomach, my cellulite, and the largeness of my hips, thighs, and butt. As I walked I reminded myself that it was in my head, that the entire beach was not looking at me, that people were too busy having fun and worrying about their own bodies in their own bathing suits to be worrying about mine. I also reminded myself that confident women wear whatever they want including bikinis and that is what I am working to be, a confident woman.
Post by Chasing Joy.
Do you wear bikinis on the beach? What have you done that has called for you to gather all your confidence? What would you like to do but feel you need more confidence first?
