[October 19]: Trust Issues

I'm always waiting,Bracing myself For the knife that willStab me in the side,The backAnd straight through my heart,Tearing, breakingRibs and lungs
I have died young too many times.I did not survive to wonder if I'll endure again,Wondering if he isn't any different
Because I know he'll twist it further inBefore leaving 
And I,  Bleeding wounds,  Working hard on healing.
----October Poetry: in the style of April Poetry (U.S. National Poetry Month),U.K’s poetry month is October.  Personal Mission: 31 days, 31 poems. Challenge Accepted.  Link to others: http://sarahkasm.tumblr.com/october-poetry-2012