Post Exam

Maybe it's wrong to head right over to blogging after a disastrous exam, but I just can't help it. Yup, it was disastrous. It's nothing exaggerated about that - believe me. If I do pass, then I think it will be with an E tops (The E is the lowest grade before fail -F in Norway). And I can't even get myself to feel bad about it.
The last couple of days that I feel like I've nothing to plan for. I don't know where I'll end up, or what I end up doing. Lately I've accepted that, and I've stopped blaming myself for it.  Maybe this is the reason why I'm not so focused anymore when studying alone. Luckily I've found some wonderful people to do assignments with, which has helped a lot. Alas, that didn't help any of us today. 
Somehow I'm surprised by my own calmness in this situation. I can feel myself saying "It will be OK". I promise you, if you knew me only a couple of years ago, you wouldn't believe it. I hardly believe it myself.
But it feels kind of liberating...