When Sour Outnumbers the Cure

I don't know why I feel this way
Heck, I don't even know what it is
All I know is there is something that passed
Right through my heart and out of it
I did exactly what I like
Today, yesterday, and even the day before
Met people I love and who love me back
And who have been away for long
Yet, I wonder what it is
That makes me feel this way
Lonely. Yes that's what it feels like.
It's uneasiness, I'm lost and gray.
Come now, I shouldn't be so hard on myself
I deserve some good time
After all the shit I've been through
Joy should come as a tequila and lime
I guess my happiness is still sour
And that lime outnumbered the cure
When will I be - the one I used to be
So cheerful, gallant, secure?