I woke up this morning to strange, gray brown skies and a
layer of dust on my car.
It must have attempted to rain, Bakersfield style, in the night.
The skies here have waffled back and forth between almost sunny and beautiful to gray and foreboding to “we clouds want it to be autumnal here as much as you do.”
The cranky mood I am in started yesterday and is still hovering. It isn’t a torrent of anger or a vise grip of sadness, it is more a full, ominous gray cloud producing nothing tangible.
Some might call it the Sunday to Monday blues.
I call it the “not enough me time doing nothing” blues.
I had a phenomenal creative burst Saturday and I think the let down from that plus the near addiction of productivity caught me off guard. The contrast of the fun I was having outside to the dankness of an unhappy friendship on the inside.
I gave myself an hour this morning to simply be here, not even puttering until I started writing this, naturally.
The time in alone and quiet has been heavenly.
I realize my crankiness has started its exit, stage left, and I am feeling more centered, more capable.
If I hadn’t allowed myself this space, I would be flailing around in a lack of productivity and the door to devaluing myself would be open. I feel so much better now.
Some questions for application:
Are you currently valuing or devaluing yourself?
What actions (including rests, time outs and mini-retreats) illustrate you care about yourself as much as you care for the other people in your life.
Give yourself space to be with those questions.
And now, your time is here. Go. Be…. Allow.
This post was inspired by the #31Days challenge on TheNester.com
So far it has been a wonderful experience of creativity and community. I hope you will continue to follow along on my adventure AND the adventures of others.
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Julie
Jordan Scott is a writer, performance poet, Mommy and mixed-media artist. Her
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