There’s just one thing I want to do lately: sit in front of the TV. I haven’t watched this much TV since I was in secondary school myself. When I analyze the particular need for this activity, I predict I’m just really tired and drained; too tired to do anything substantial, even though I have to do prep work and do my own school work. I fall asleep on the couch after dinner; something I saw my father doing frequently when I was in secondary school, and something I thought was just ‘for senior citizens’.
There has been stuff going on in my life, privately as well as professionally, and although it fortunately doesn’t keep me awake at night (yet!) it’s just stuff that’s continually present and keeping my thoughts occupied.
It doesn’t help that we’re now back in winter time and it’s dark when I wake up and almost dark when I get home from work, and that it’s getting colder and wetter.
Writing is one of the last things on my mind, and I have to force myself to sit down and just do it. It’s depressing.
