9:32pm
Dear Diary,
Aaaarrrggg! I am not going to be addicted to computer games again! I’ve been down that road and I do NOT ever want to do it again, but how do I not do something that I enjoy doing?
Well, as you may know I had my Human Body Systems mid-semester test this morning, and I have to say it went horribly. Mainly due to the fact that I didn’t study for it at all, but I’m still tying to get my life back on track every since my ex broke up with me.
Well right after the test and after lunch, a few friends of mine decided to invite me to play Warcraft with them… a game went by, then another, then another, and before I’d realised it 5 hours had gone by. Oh my gosh, I haven’t played a game that long since I got addicted to Runescape 6 years ago. It was horrible, and now I must promise myself to never play Warcraft III with them again. For those of you who don’t know, here’s a screenshot to show you:
The Warcraft III title screen
DoTA (Defense of the Ancients) on Warcraft III
You may wonder why I would want to stop myself from playing a game that I enjoy. Well, it’s just because I’m scared I’d be like the nerd that was addicted to Runescape 6 years ago. I was skinny, didn’t take care of my looks and the biggest introvert you’d ever seen. But, as many things go, something changed me and I started working out, I tried to be more extroverted and I stopped playing computer games and became more social. I went from shy nerd to socialiser. I led such a social life before my ex girlfriend broke up with me a few months ago. Now I just have nothing to do, and I’m trying to get that social life back. I want to work out. I want to look good and keep myself looking good. I want to be social and extroverted. I don’t want to be a computer nerd.
You may think that I’m shallow for judging computer nerds like that, stereotyping them and sort of looking down on them. But from my experience, it’s like being sucked into something that you think is fun, but there’s actually something better. When I was playing Runescape, I thought i was having fun but I was only giving myself a false sense of accomplishment that made me want to spend all day playing it. It was pointless. I wasted countless hours on it. I learnt nothing, except not to trust strangers on the internet.
If I was socialising instead of playing Runescape, I would have learnt so much, especially about social dynamics, which is one of the most important things in life. And when I actually think about it, I now have more fun just being around people and doing nothing rather than just facing a computer screen and telling people to do this or that in the game. Playing computer games just isn’t worth it anymore. I want to put what I’ve learnt about pickup artistry to the test.
Some of you out there may be able to relate, others may think I’m just trying to look ‘cool’ because I don’t play computer games anymore and isn’t a nerd. Well you know what, I secretly feel like punishing myself for playing computer games and being nerdy again. I love the social life too much to be wasting my time on this rubbish.
Yours, -Harper
