Faith

Hey guys,
I was just listening to this song :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rJynET3b3PM and it empowers me to know that God loves me. I know personally I haven't had the best couple of weeks, I've really been struggling with my faith. But, I know that I will always come out of the ashes and show my true beauty to God. I want to be seen as beautiful in front of God and prove this worth to him, to prove that I can be an example in his eyes. Today, I went to join the CU officially, I didn't know why I just did it and after I thought that I wouldn't have done it; if God hadn't wanted me to. I also attended the CU tonight and there was a great talk, it was real great. I just thought of the S.Chaman song and knew that despite the ashes I surround myself in the beauty will shine. I make mistakes, I make errors, I fight, I get involved with the wrong people and I am not faultless. All I hope is that God can forgive my errors and faulty ways, and see my true beauty within. I wanted to be exalted in his eyes, I want my father to place a hand on my shoulder and I want to feel his presence even more. I want to begin my path back to God, I want to rise out of the ashes. But most importantly, I want to find myself in the next three years, I want to get my bearings and become a full fledged Christian. I want to find my father when he calls me. Despite, the distance feeling so great I know he is always beside me helping me to become strong. He's my Dad at the end of it, God made me and to that I am eternally grateful. Some words resonate in my mind "whatever you have done, whatever you have become, it doesn't matter. Please come home." I haven't actually been to the pastor who wrote this message and maybe this is my calling. I think this Sunday I'll visit his church and see how it goes. But I'll always remember that out of these ashes beauty will rise!
Lots of love,
TSITR x