It’s #FiveMinuteFriday free write time! <—click to tweet this! 
Where a flash mob of folks spend five minutes all writing on the same topic and then share ‘em at LisaJoBaker.com.
Words from my five minutes on....
STAY:
Stay.
My eyes fill with tears. Stay. I have been struggling for the last roughly thirty hours. Do I stay or do I go? Do I forgive and build again or do I say, “Enough is enough, you have proven repeatedly you will hurt me over and over and over again. This has been my pattern and if I don’t stop it now, with you, I am afraid I will never be able to stop it. What sort of a model is this for my daughters?”
I think about forgiveness, all those number sevens. I think about turning the other cheek but I think, I don’t have more than two cheeks unless you start counting my butt and I really don’t want to be slapped on my ass any more than absolutely necessary.
Stay.
I had said to myself after this five minute write was over, I would take my sleep helper and lull myself to sleep alongside my children. Send a quick “Goodnight” text and be done with it.
Stay.
How much compassion do I carry?
Does this mean I lay out the carpet of compassion and “let’s be clear about our expectations and not waffle once we are absolutely certain of causes and effects.”
I told him, “I can’t keep getting up and then getting knocked down again. I just can’t do it.”
Stay.
What is God wanting me to “get” from all this?
Last night there were torrents of awful words pouring through my thoughts. I couldn’t say the worst of them because they were too risky to speak. I stayed silent. Stay. Silent?
Stay compassionate?
Stay forgiving?
Stay loving?
“Become a role model for my children in what exact way, God? Would you help me out here, please?”
Stay.
TIMER sings! I’m done with my Friday Five!The guidelines for Five Minute Friday -
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. And
then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the
person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments.
Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this
community..
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield. She leads Writing Camp with JJS & this Summer will be traveling throughout the US to bring this unique, fun filled creative experience to the people wherever she finds the passion & the interest.
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