Fucking Studying

I left high school a semester early just because I was bored. I still haven't technically graduated I still have two exams that I have to write, and I am totally fucked for them. I can't study!! I don't know why, I'm very smart I have a tested IQ of 142 which means I'm technically considered a genius lol, but I suck at school I have trouble concentrating. I understand pretty much everything but I can just never remember it because I don't study. I don't get terrible grades, it's not like I'm going to fail or anything but I just feel like I'm not living up to my potential. Like I do exams, FINAL exams with only studying for like an hour tops and that's while listening to music, and probably eating, so it really does nothing for me. I'm not sure what I want to do with my life, I'm also horrible at planning for the future, and now that I'm at the end of grade 12 I just regret everthing, I should have studied more, I should have cared more about my grades and maybe people would have realized that I am as smart as I am, I could have got scholarships, my parents would have set up a college fund for me and I wouldn't have to work, I could have instead gone to university next year instead, hell I probably could have graduated like a year ago and already been on my way to a degree. But instead I'm unemployed, I have no credentials, I don't have the qualifications to get into a good school, I feel like I cheated myself out of a future.
But say what you will about me, I'm happy. Maybe I won't go on to be a doctor, or I won't create the next cool gadget, but when I think of going to university and just studying all day, trying to secure a "future" for my self I just think, WHY!?!? What is the point, why don't I have fun NOW, why do I have to save up so when I'm old and wrinkly I can sit around all day comfortably waiting to dye. Maybe later I will go to college and try to make something out of myself, but for now, I'm just going to fuck around, why not, I'm young, I'm free, why not be irresponsible, yeah future me will regret it, but FUCK that guy!! He's a douche, I gotta look out for myself.
Plus, how do I know that future me will appreciate what I do for him? He will just regret the things that I could have done better anyways so I think I'm just going to fuck him over, you have to live in the moment right!! And that is what I'm about now, I could die!! That could happen, like tomorrow, I do not take good care of myself, I am in constant danger it's just a matter of time. So yeah I just wasted like an hour or something like that (I don't have a good sense of time) writing this when I could have been studying for the chemistry exam I'm taking tomorrow, but fuck it, I just want to get high school over with.
Wish me luck for tomorrow I am definitely going to need it.
Nick McDonald