You could say I am feeling slightly perturbed at the moment. This feeling has everything to do with one of my students (let’s call him A.).
Where I have known most of my students for almost two years now, I have known him since the beginning of this school year. He came into my group because he couldn’t keep up at the level he was in last year and also – as later appeared – he had major trust and bullying issues.
After having put in a lot of time and effort trying to build some kind of relationship or bond, to gain his trust, he threw it all right back in my face last Monday. He really pissed me off and this is something that seldom happens.
When I sent him out of class because he kept talking to other students in class (and during a test) even when he was asked to stop by the students and myself, he initially didn’t want to take my note with him. And only after being extremely rude to me, he left with my note. When he came back after class to talk about what happened, he didn’t want to sit down and refused to explain to me why. Then he proceeded to put the blame on everyone except himself, and was giving off an extremely strange vibe.
Something is physically wrong with him as well, because he keeps fainting all over the place. I know he really needs some (positive) attention, but I feel myself being unable to give this to him. This, in turn, makes me feel like I’m a bad teacher and person. How can I get past these feelings of extreme dislike? If you have the (an) answer to this question, please let me know.
