How to Word This...

Sometimes my love we reach brick walls and tall fortresses that stop us pursuing what we really want, what we really desire. Do we desire love? Do we desire lust? Do we desire both? I can't tell you what I want, I can't express any emotion that I feel. I just have to look into your eyes and pray that you can find that answer within me. That you can finally feel what I feel, that you will have the answer to these entanglements. That finally things will make sense to both you, and to me. For you see, I want things to make sense. Don't think I don't, believe me I do. I want to break all these boundaries, break past these things that halter us.
I sometimes, do I really feel how I feel? Is my emotion a false pretense and when you look into my eyes do you think that too? Am I overcomplicating things? What stops you, I  could name a handful of reasons; love, girlfriends, work and memories. Reason upon reason; hawking upon you; the world on your shoulders. Our shoulders. It's not that I don't feel, I'm not a shell for you to cast your abandoned futile pieces of hope in. I don't want to believe in hope, of course I believe in hope; because I believe in you. All I want is you to be happy, to find your piece of solitude in the webs that we weave.
That's all I can say, that's all I have to say.

I'm sorry.
Love,
TSITR