It’s been a weird month, a very weird month.
Two weeks ago, I attended a ladies night at Midtown Crossing where a psychic medium was there to give five minute readings to guests. Her name is Jess Coleman and she’s a medium at Mind Body Spirit Omaha. My first impression was, “Interesting, she’s wearing pants. I thought she’d be wearing a long flowy skirt and crystals.” But she wasn’t like that image in my head. She was a normal looking girl who was even funny in her nature.
And the reading was… eerie.
She told me that she was channeling my grandmother and was very specific in the things she was channeling. Things like how I just got my hair cut and how we shared a love of Dancing With The Stars. Not the stuff I have shared here on the blog or even on social media. I left feeling a bit blown away. I felt excited to share with others what she said and was more curious than ever.
Then, a week later, I went to see Rebecca Rosen. I had gotten the tickets before the five minute reading the week before so it was just a coincidence to go to two mediums in one week. She’s a psychic medium that’s been on Dr. Phil and Rachel Ray and such. She was at a local theater filled with hundreds of people. I had my husband join me who pointed out that listening to sad, depressing death stories might be the worst date night I have ever planned. And he was right. What exhilarated me about that five minute reading from Jess was missing in the large theater reading. It felt like the medium was fishing for information and although there were occasional “Ah Ha!” moments, in general, it felt like everything was a stretch. I didn’t leave a believer and felt my excitement fading.
So I was quite curious when my mom and I were given the opportunity to get a private long reading from the first medium, Jess – the one who gave me that powerful five minute reading. We were given a chance to do a 30 minute meditation by Amy Malone, a yoga and meditation instructor at the center, prior to the reading. This was fascinating to me. I have never meditated before and can barely shut off my brain to sleep so I was curious how this was going to be.
I loved it. I found it relaxing and a great chance to just let go for a few minutes. To know that I couldn’t solve any child’s problem at that moment, or be interrupted by a phone ringing or a talking doll left on the floor, was wonderful.
And then, a few minutes after meditation, the reading with Jess began.
My mother and I entered in to the reading with absolutely no expectations. We weren’t nervous, we weren’t anxious, we were simply curious.
It started a bit rocky. She talked about things that we couldn’t find a connection to and names that meant nothing to us. She said there were many of our dead loved ones coming through (5-6 people there around her) and it could be confusing. And as the reading continued, things started to connect a bit better and at times, I found her comments eerie again. Not to the magnitude of that first quick reading, but still things she couldn’t find online or know on her own. Things like: how I wear my grandmother’s wedding ring on my right hand and how I named my daughter after her. She told my mom how there was a family house that was important to my grandfather. All true but still at times a bit vague and general.
But throughout the reading I kept wondering if I was trying to find links because I wanted to or if they really were there. I don’t have the answer to that. I’m not sure I ever will.
So what do I believe? I believe that there are those who can tap into something in the world beyond. I believe they have taken the time to learn and develop that sense. However, I don’t think it is as specific as we wish it was.
Do I think Jess and Rebecca can connect deeper to our loved ones than most of us can? Yes. But do I think they nail all those details, unfortunately not. I have to admit, I feel the closest to my grandmother when it is just me talking to her. Just me feeling her presence around me, and just me knowing that she’s with me. Not because a medium tells me, but because I just know it for myself. Perhaps that’s just me wanting to feel that, but it doesn’t matter. I think that’s why people go to mediums, they just want to feel the love of a lost one. Luckily, I feel her love around me every day.
And that means more to me than anything a medium can tell me.
