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I Wear a Heart Permanently on My Face Rooting for #TeamTCCG

Posted on the 21 March 2014 by Juliejordanscott @juliejordanscot

Me in a scarfOn the right side of my face where my cheekbone raises its highest, the outline of a heart shines from my skin. I am a melanoma survivor. The place where my skin was cut to get the cancer out was made into flaps which when stretched back into their new places took the shape of a heart.

People notice this and comment on it, probably more notice it and don't say anthing than those who speak about it or gently touch my face, smiling, "You have a heart on your face!"

It is much better than in the beginning, when I hid my face. My collection of scarves was abundance. I favored purple or pink.

I've had different skin cancers in the last year and a half.

I have also had a change of heart.

Cancer doesn't scare me like it used to.

I don't minimize it: cancer is scary and unpleasant. It isn't a place I would choose to go. I lost my face forever when I had my surgery. It wouldn't surprise me to have more as time goes on.

The thing is, it is up to me - and up to you - to decide who or what is in control of your life. I prefer to keep my own power rather than give it to the "big c."  I have chosen to live my life to the fullest. I wear pretty hats now.

I make the best of what I've got.

Pretty scarves, fun hats, laughter with friends while watching the sunset.

Things just get better because I have decided to look from that perspective.

My friend, Jen, told me about her friend, Annabelle, who recently joined this wild cancer ride. I am  Temannabelle so glad to have a moment to chat with you, here, Miss A - and hopefully encourage you and anyone else reading this today. 

Your scar may not be shaped like a scar: at least visibly. I have a feeling your love shines within you through many places. Celebrate those and I'll be there. I'll bring the balloons and perhaps an extra scarf or two.


My fav selfieJulie Jordan Scott is a writer, creative life coach, speaker, performance poet, Mommy and mixed-media artist. Her word-love themed art will be for sale at a First Friday in Downtown Bakersfield. Check out the links below to follow her on a bunch of different social media channels, especially if you find the idea of a Word-Love Party bus particularly enticing.

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