A little while back, I posted about wanting to spend more time on the blog. I committed to taking time at night to open my computer and chip away at my goals. Welp, I am here to report… I have NOT done it AT ALL. Life got away from me. I get home from work and the last thing I want to do is open my computer. But then I sit at work and I am like, this is the last place I want to be. I want to be blogging. It truly is a Catch 22.
I know not to compare myself to others but is SO hard. I find old blog friends on Instagram with thousands of followers or click through on Pinterest to a blog I used to follow and it’s beautiful and I think about what I could of had if I just stuck to it and committed.
Honestly, it’s the same problem I have with my diet and nutrition. I can’t commit to anything and give up after a few days. Between my blog and my diet, you’d think I would want to figure it out. Instead, I choose other things like family-time, relaxing, and socializing [which is ok!]. Maybe one day I will figure out how to have both. I am trying. I guess that’s why this blog is called Comfy & Confident. It’s about finding that place where you ar. Enduring the journey. Accepting the Challenge. It shouldn’t be a Catch 22. I should be able to find my passion and pursue it. I just need to remind myself of that.
It won’t happen over night. It will take time and patience; two things I am not very good at. But, if it gets me to my goals, it’s worth trying right!?
So as I was writing this, I went on Instagram and one of my favorite people, Katrina Scott, from Tone It Up, posted a mantra about finding your path… it is so fitting. Here is what she wrote,”
“‘you can not travel the path until you’ve become the path itself’…there really is no way to move forward and into the life you want until everything that yo do, breathe, and love is on that path. You have to visualize yourself on it and become exactly what you dream. You can manifest anything as long as you put your full heart and self into that life and let go of everything else that doesn’t serve you. Remember you are capable of so much more than you could ever know!”
This is exactly what I know I need to do. I need to visualize myself on the path I want and just do it. Put blinders on and forget what anyone else might think or do. I need to let go of the what if’s holding me back and take a leap of faith. I will figure it out. My family will be ok. My path can be found.
I need to let go of the Catch 22 and just walk down my path.
