400mg of Gabapentin +
100mg of Trazodone +
8 hours in bed +
= 1 slightly better rested, but incredibly dopey girl.
I am groggy and slow this morning; my friend at work said I look delayed… she’s not one of the rude ones, I promise. I am having trouble articulating my emotions, or responding with emotion to my friends’ stories from their weekends. I feel frozen.
This high dosage of Gabapentin and Trazodone was self-prescribed; I’ve been experimenting with the medication all weekend and trying to manage my frustration at how futile my efforts have been. I slept uneasily Friday night after leaving work early; I still woke up three times throughout the night but was able to fall back asleep. No such luck on Saturday night, I woke up at 1:30am and stayed awake… how is that even possible?? Am I taking placebo pills and don’t even know it?
And then last night, I upped both dosages (I’m familiar enough with these drugs to know that I had that as an option, but I do NOT recommend anybody trying that without a doctor’s sign-off) and slept much better, but with the added effect of this morning’s sleep/drug hangover. And the Trazodone knocks my blood pressure (usually a low 90/60) down even lower and I hear wind rush in my ears and my vision blurs when I stand.
It’s still better than not sleeping, I guess.
