I always worked with a plan in life and expected to achieve certain milestones in life by a certain age. So far it’s not been going great. Most of the things have been delayed due to some unforeseen events or another. The recent one being corona pandemic and the ensuing restrictions.
I had expected to socialize and familiarise with more people after I get a good secure job. Even when I somewhat did the corona pandemic played spoilsport. The ensuing restrictions meant my plans were not going to materialize.
I always seem to get a raw deal when it comes to my expectations. I do not seek much from life but then I don’t even get that. Sure I am entitled and privileged enough to have certain amenities and facilities that others less fortunate than me can only dream of. But then I cannot seem to fill a certain kind of emptiness inside me.
Maybe I live too much in my thoughts than in reality. I tend to think and expect too much and the events in my life always throw up something unexpected for the worse. I am tired of it all. Sometimes I just think of giving up, tired of all the trials and tribulations of life. I will take life as it comes. Never settle for less. Shoot for the moon maybe just maybe I will catch the stars someday. Till then, c’est la vie.
