I got a text message at three o’clock this morning which I
didn’t notice until my alarm went off at 5:45. It was something about deception
in a he said/she said where is she I don’t know I’m trapped she said but I don’t
believe and on and on and on in a well worn pattern between a long unhappily married
couple.
It feels like one layer of sediment atop another atop another atop another and there is so much swirling dust it never gets cleared, it just piles another layer of dust where it wasn’t before.
I don’t understand the layers of deception.
I can’t tune into the accusations and the drilling into what it is or isn’t.
It isn’t because I am saintly because I am not.
I just don’t know why there is so much investment in the energy stream of someone who consistently tells untruths unless it is a mutual whirlwind of lies and cover ups and swirling messes of sand crisscrossing each other’s paths.
I look out the window and write a quick haiku of what I see:
Painted desert sky
Right outside my window pane
Bakersfield morning
I am choosing to take this five minutes of writing to let it go.
I pop a Hershey’s kiss I shouldn’t be eating into my mouth. I take a gulp of coffee and look again at the sunrise which now doesn’t look so much like the painted desert, it looks more like the threads on a pastel baby blanket.
I’ll save that metaphor for tomorrow’s haiku and leave the swirling sand of deception to others to bear.
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