Reasons

Hey guys,
I haven't posted a blog in so long and now with only 15 mins left till I go to work I just wanted to say sorry. I've not been the best YouTuber or blogger and I'm really feeling the strain. Not only of University which is having a serious impact on my health, I've not been able to sleep, eat and just feel under a lot of pressure. I hope you can understand. I'm trying my best to think of myself but it's a lot of pressure right now and this isn't even my third year! I need to take a step back from YouTube but will continue as soon as I feel better in myself. I've just not been okay. The second reason is quite silly really as I've spoken about it before. But the fact I feel so buried under a lot of other YouTubers and even though I am happy with what I'm doing. I can't help but notice when going through any YouTube comments how even the people who post snarky comments also have subscribers. I hate how YouTube has become a site of popularity over community and when I first saw YouTube emerge I had no idea that things would become this way. I also feel inundated with adverts of other YouTubers who pay to have themselves advertised! This to me is again the whole issue of popularity. What happened to community spirit! I always try and reply to all of my subscribers and other people because that's my idea of community spirit. I'm a very open and honest person. I'm not going to ever intentionally seek popularity, I'm never going to try and be somebody else for someone else. I am me. And that is something I feel important to express in this day and age. I hope you can all understand or relate in some way.
Love,
TSITR xo