I so often use to get caught up in my creative world so bad. That I, would forget about the world that was outside of my own stories. I didn’t want to be part of it, nor anyone a part me.
Outward, I’am sure I seemed bitter, in fact I’am sure I was.Because, back than I didn’t dream big. I also was mad, I confess at God because , he wasn’t a genie. Funny, how self absorb thinking can lead to childish actions.
Also, how a bad environment can lead to the wrong friendships. As well as poor places of employment. That keeps one down with muted eyes covered with clear glasses. As one tries to keep every else’s proverbial glasses half full.
So, as I stated briefly , I may have been a wee bit bitter. So, I had, no choice but, to voice my feelings through my journals. Or, perhaps right a romance that realistically can only be righted in a novel. Where I could create, the man of my dreams as my savior. Because, during that time, I seemed to had forgotten, that, I already had one.
Hence, I had no problem deleting my few pending novels. where I seemed to have been writing as if I was in a matrix loop.That’s, pretty much the feel, I was writing about in the first paragraph of this story. Some, relationships should be left where they ended.
This brings me to today.Where, I will use, God’s discernment into my writing. I mean he does have a best selling book. Ever! Called , the Bible! Duh. Also, my life now, has a certain promise, that I didn’t have before. Though, I knew it was there.
But, now, I have friends who are encouraging. They love and like their own lives. Besides, everything they loves, Christ. As well as being, career minded people. I can honestly say, we have our ups and downs with one another/ life. But, we ,some how oppose that, which, makes us oppose each other/ life. And this is my real life! now.
This makes we want to write even more.. Even, while I fight through my life’s trials.I can still have bits of joy, through good friends, while creating creative story lines. Stories, that are yet to be seen.
Well, this is everything I’am while in progress. It’s time for to go and work on a book that I’am writing. That, just might surprise everyone.Chapter 6 is almost written. I write you all later.
May God Bless us, with courage to not only dream big. But, create them even it’s one day at time. or, if we need to start all over. in the name of Jesus.~Amen
