Today’s art was a matter of necessity meeting crankiness
meeting “I have to be creative to solve this problem.”
For any of you who don’t know, I had surgery for melanoma nine weeks ago today. There is still a hole in my face from it because the deepest stitch – where the heart of the cancer lived – has not dissolved. My body continues to say “Foreign body! Foreign body!” and attacking it.
Thus my wound, no matter what wondrous care I give to it, remains unresolved. If it doesn’t take care of itself by January 3, I will have to have a second surgery to take the interloper stitch out of my face.
The rest of my scar looks pretty bad ass. It is shaped like a heart and even though I have a dent in my face, I also got a mini chin lift from the way the surgeon moved my skin around.
SO! Today I had a hair appointment. I had dirty hair. I had
roots of gray and the
rest of my hair was brown. I needed a hat, with a brim,
since I still can’t wear sunscreen. I had bought a fisherman’s cap a while back
but it made me feel even uglier than I naturally do, which now is even worse
than before I sported a very unlady-like though interestingly shaped scar.
I grabbed the hat, though, and grabbed some paper flowers I created in the past few weeks as a form of creative meditation and at last I grabbed a glue gun.
And here you have it: hat history. This is my daughter, Emma, wearing my hat.
I think it is somewhat ridiculous looking, but I got
compliments as I wore it about town today.
I laughed each time.
Now my hair is back to all brown.
I still have an unhealed wound.
My mood has moved from worry about being seen in public with roots and an unhealed scar to a deepening heart wound I was able to ignore most of the day. I don’t think covering the brim of hat with paper flowers will help.
Sleep, perhaps – and time, perhaps, will.
This is just another way Art Every Day Month has helped me continue to heal in more ways than one.
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