There I Said It.

Hey guys,
So as you know my absence has been long, long overdue. I'm really sorry on my behalf. I've been working on a lot of issues, with self and with others. A few really big things have been happening and it's been a struggle, it reflects the past when I lost my two best friends. I don't want to touch it on so much but it's involved loosing someone (not through any sort of illness or passing) but, it's had a affect on me as a person.
There is a certain empowerment in a woman and for any human being. You have the power to change your situation if you aren't happy, change that. Bam. Simple. Right? Not quite. Sometimes we need these influential changes to enhance ourselves. I really just sat down and thought, this is it I'm a woman. I've dealt with this as an adult. I haven't pleaded and chased after them as my fifteen year old self may have done. I don't want to go into specifics as it is not necessary. The only specific I will mention is during our year long "relationship" I want to be as broad as possible in that term and not condone it to one absolute meaning, is that it has had an advance effect on me as a human.
Some people will walk into your life and you won't think of the changes they will have on you. This specific relationship began that way. During this time, I look to the good memories and nurture them, for they are the important ones, the negative ones only impact the self, not the memory. To me, these are two different spheres of being. There's a reason for the saying "mind over heart."
Whilst I do not condone their behavior, I think there's an approach that should be adopted when ending such a long span of a "relationship." Would I have dealt it that specific way if it had been myself? Not likely. Yet who knows, these things are here to teach us in life and are mere stepping stones to a better self, ultimately. Nobody is perfect.
So there is that. I think it is beautifully summed up in this quote from Postive Quotes on Twitter (perhaps my most re tweeted- I wonder why!)
'When you finally get something good, enjoy it. Don't go looking for something better.'
Meanwhile, I've been in a haze of University, socializing and cramming in all the reading possible. 'Slaughterhouse 5' and 'The Man in the Empty Suit' are my latest reads (this reminds me to return my library books!) Therefore, have been flailing my arms manically in search of a resolution to this chaos. I was taking a few days off at the end of this month to see this person, but feel it has come perfectly for a bit of R&R with my lovely chum.