I’ve been absent for quite a while and I could name quite a few causes for it. The last months before the summer break were extremely busy at work; there was a lot that needed to be done and a lot of my time went into coaching my students to round off their work for the school year and into trying to pull them over that finish line. In the mean time, I had to try and round off my own school work which I also (barely) managed. Then my mother-in-law was admitted to the hospital and had to stay there for a week. Besides all this (nonsense – I could still write, right?), I had (and am still having) a severe case of writer’s block and sometimes it borders on aversion.
But… there’s another BIG reason why I haven’t been writing much about anything, is that I felt I couldn’t write about the one thing that was constantly occupying my mind.
That’s right, I’m pregnant.
The first people we shared the news with were my husband’s parents. That was a couple of days after we did the test – we told them on Ascension Day. We didn’t want to tell anyone else yet because it was still early, but we really wanted to share it with them so that we could talk to them about it and ask for their (much needed) advice. We wanted to wait with telling his brother and sister until we had the first ultrasound at about 10 weeks.
I was about 12 weeks pregnant at the end of the school year but found it still too early to notify my team leader and so I couldn’t tell people at work (I just told one person who I trust with anything). Writing about it here seemed, for some reason, like a risk to me. What if a co-worker found out about it this way and relayed this information to my team leader somehow (paranoid much)? So I refrained.
Now that I’m beginning to actually show and can’t hide it anymore, I’m even cautious walking in the city center of my town afraid of running into co-workers or students. But this week I’ve decided I just don’t care. I want to enjoy this as much as I can and I don’t want to worry about stupid stuff like this!
So, there you have it. I’ll try blogging more, but I just can’t guarantee you it won’t revolve around babies!
