Sometimes, we also may suddenly not feel safe in our special space to write. It makes me so so mad about this. After an incident on Sunday at my kids house, I suddenly don't feel safe there to write during the day while my kids are in school. At least not for now. I don't want my nightmare coming true, as it would scar my kids for life. And I don't want a hair on their heads touched by these people. I am documenting it everywhere, and if I should turn up dead and my kids turn up dead too, I will say to all. Look to the nasty people in 4A. In the apt above me. I don't care how they do it, but it will 100% be them across the board.
I am so sick and tired of hearing them discussing my bleeping murder up there, it isn't funny. And then at one point, this chick(I won't say her name) comes running down the stairs screaming, "Two kids are already dead!!!" I pretty much knew she was messing with me at one point, but even so, I had to call my ex husband to make sure they were alright. I don't think the guy wants her to kill the kids.
Where, I don't know them, I have to take everything seriously. Yes, they could be messing with me, but maybe they could not. One of them was trying to discourage her from doing it, and she was offering to pay someone to do it. I walked out the door this morning, with the cops on the phone and said that it's all documented everywhere. That lets these people whom I am sure are listening, that I've documented it and if I am indeed murdered or my kids, it will be them that the cops come after. I will make sure of it.
People already know and are aware. I don't care if they hire a hit man or some random person to do it, it will still be them as they are the ones who are plotting it. I will broadcast them, so they can't touch me or my kids. I've already broad casted them.
So, anyway, back to where do you like to write your novels. I loved writing mine while sitting on my kids couch, and enjoyed watching my favorite shows while doing so. The Today Show, Rachael Ray, Kathy Lee and Hoda Kotb, Millionaire (not my fav, but background noise), Days of Our Lives, The Talk, Anderson Cooper, and then the kids get control and it's either 66 or Animal Planet.
My ex husband is blowing this whole thing off, and I told him that he cannot be 100% certain that these people won't come in and hurt or kill any of us. They are unpredictable. He would be very sorry, if it were to heaven forbid happen. I've told him and he has been warned. Makes me so mad as a mother. My kids come first and I would die for them. I don't want to see any of them killed by these people. They are so young and should have the rest of their lives to live, love and prosper. I'm having awful nightmares of finding all of them dead and it's my worst nightmare.
I feel like I am an awful victim in this. It's no way to live, and I am searching for a new place to live, but nothing yet. It's hard to find something in my price range near the kids, a place that will take pets, etc...
I feel that I will be on guard for a long time. It's a very scary feeling to know that someone wants to end your life.
I have so many dreams and I want to see these novels to completion. It's no fair.
So, I will not say where I am writing now, but let's just say it is somewhere else. And then when my kids come home, I will be there with them. These terrible people will not scare me away from my children, as that is where I need to be.
I was recently told that J.K. Rowling liked writing in a pub. That's cool.
Well, onto writing on The Glorious Money Tree Trilogy. And my lunch is going to be a tuna fish sandwich. I've already downed a small bag of Cheetos. I grabbed it from the kids pantry without the kids looking. Mollyanne would have a fit if I was grabbing one of their school snacks. Mom will replenish on my next grocery store trip.
I treated one to a blueberry flavored cough drop this morning. I went in last night to get some menthol ones and saw blueberry. They are good.
This weekend with the kids was nice. I spent Friday and Saturday night with them. I took a few breaks to make some of those flavored salts, bruschetta dip, and an orange sugar mixture to put in my coffee. It was good. Although next time, I would omit the zest. Zest isn't very good combination with coffee!!
And the girls got so disgusted looking at the dip. Someday, they will come to love all these things. I used to be the queen of leaving "the ring around the plate". I must have spent an hour at the supper table every night. They wouldn't let me leave until they thought I had done a good job finishing. As I got older, I'm sure they got suspicious when I would bring my plate into the bathroom with me. Ha ha.
Jennifer Jo Fay
Copyrighted November 12, 2012
This is with my fish eye lens for the Nikon D90. I haven't mastered the bracketing for this. My son, Sean, knows a lot more about it. He knows how to operate my manual settings better than I do.Below is my bath salt. It has eucalyptus in it and I think mint. I've got this awful dry cough that won't go away and it was nice to use this recently. These are so quick and easy to make.
