Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were uneducated and untrained men, they marveled. And they realized that they had been with Jesus. — Acts 4:13
The issues of self-esteem and self-confidence has always been a dance… The forward and backward steps of the cha cha…
Whenever I feel insecure and unsure of myself, I take a step backward… And when I gain a small amount of confidence, I find the courage to move forward.
But I realize that I am yet to master the dance routines… And many times it was a lot easier to take the backward step… Which was more certain… So the move felt a lot safer… Unlike the more risky, more complicated forward steps… Sometimes they can bring you to a cliff – On the edge… nearly falling… perhaps failing Without you being able to foresee it.
Those setbacks threaten me… And they make me lose faith in myself… Worrying that… I may not be strong enough or good enough to handle them.
And then I remember reading my friend Dana’s blog post a few months ago… And her words that taught me a valuable lesson…
“I’m supposed to trust God before anything else, I do. But after that comes in trusting yourself in the path of God...”
I was awakened…
Photos: Super late posting of images taken on my birthday last September 5, 2012.
