I haven’t been feeling well lately…And it’s not due to a flu or any other viral illness.I personally feel like it’s related to my depression.Or anxiety.Because of worries about my future.And as much as I would just like to shake these negative feelings because I wish to start the year feeling positive…I just can’t.And that worry is still in my heart.
Sometimes it makes me anxious.It makes me feel the frustration of other people towards me.People who are close to me.People who expect that I should be doing so much more.I can feel their desire of planning things for me, instead.I can feel them losing their patience…Even if they don’t say a word.And inside, even if I want to fight this feeling…It just makes me want to cry.
Yes, this has been bothering me.And maybe I needed to write this to be honest with myself.And right now, my heart is beating fast…My body feels weak and exhausted…I feel really sad…And my mind is racing.
I wish this would all just stop…
Yet I would like to end on a positive note.Because I know I’ll feel better.
