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Letting It Go

Posted on the 23 June 2014 by Felicakes @felicakes

 Towards the end of last year, I was in a bad place.  I was in a hundred different places at the same time and not, you know?  I was literally all over the place.  I was trying to make people happy and because of that, I neglected taking care of myself.  I had nothing nice to say about every one and any one, I was jealous and I was told that I was a shit friend because was not stepping up and keeping my end of the deal.  At the end, things spiraled out of control and I found myself tired, sad and nearly went down that rabbit hole.

I cried and poured my heart out to my husband and my long time friend, Roy. Obviously being guys, they saw it differently than I do.  They were confused as to why I was upset and sad.  What they told me turned me around though. Let it go. Learn to let go of the things that I can not control go.  Pretty simple right? LET IT GO.  Just like the song.  Just let it go and for the most part of it, I let it go.

So on New Year's day, like everyone else, I made a vow, this year, I am changing the way I deal with things.  Learning that everything that went or will go wrong, is a lesson that I have to learn.  I will learn, and is still learning, how to accept the negativity as part of growing.  We all need a little negativity in our life but it's there to teach and tell us something.  It's there to serve as a reminder not to take that path again and learn to appreciate the little things in life.  So I am still slowly letting it go. Still learning. Surrounding myself with friends and people that give me strength and encouragements and so far, so good.   Just the other night, M told me that he has noticed that I have changed.   He noticed that I am being so much more positive about things in life and I have learnt how to let things that we can not control go.

With the few negative people in my life, I know that, personally, it's not me that they have a problem with. It's how they feel about themselves.  Something that I can not control.  I will continue to provide them support and encouragement but the one thing that have changed, I am not going down that path anymore. It's not worth it. Sure I have lost a friend or two, but I think, if they can't accept that, then they will know where to find me when they finally do.  I will greet them with open arms.


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