My flesh and my heart fail;
ButGodisthe strength of my heart and my portion forever. — Psalm 73:26
It seems life is always out to challenge me. When it sees me muster a little courage, It throws a test to check if I am ready. A test that gives me multiple choice answers: a) to face the challenge; or b) to run away from it. Most of the time, I resorted to choice b, Because it was the much easier thing to do. And because I was afraid.
Most of the battles I faced haven’t been really between me and life itself, But more of me battling against myself. Battling against my fears, my insecurities, my PMS, my emotions. It is for these reasons that small challenges can already overwhelm me. And when I am being forced to get out of my comfort zone, I get really anxious, So anxious that the anxiety drains up my energy… And I end up feeling so tired at the end of the day without me really doing that much.
But I cannot spend the rest of my life running away… Because it causes a lot of hassle to other people, And I am in no way helping myself overcome my own self.
Yes, I am working on it. I just wish the challenges didn’t have to come all at the same time.
Please say a prayer for me.
