I’ve been feeling reluctant to write about this on my blog.It puts me in a vulnerable position…Which sometimes makes me feel uncomfortable…And a bit scared.But then again, I wanted to remain true to myself…Get this out in the open…And then be able to make sense out of every word that comes from my mind…And my heart.
It’s been a week since I started reading the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay.And yes, I must say that the content is very empowering for someone who truly wants to experience healing in his life.A few of the things I learned like:We are all victims of our past…Those who hurt us are also victims who are just as frightened and as scared as we are…The point of power is always in the present moment…The value of forgiveness…Are strong words that teach compassion and motivate one to live in the present.
But I must admit that…Despite reading such excellent self-help book…And receiving pieces of advice from friends about staying positive…Sometimes, the past is still there to get me.It is not because I refuse to forgive those who wronged me…Because I don’t want to be a person who harbors hatred and bitterness…And God knows I’ve long forgiven people who hurt me.But because some painful experiences created such a huge impact…Leaving me feeling traumatized until the present time.And it is not because I don’t listen to advice from other people…Because I understand that people give advice to help me…And I really appreciate that and do my best to apply them in my life.But because I am finding it difficult to change the negative thinking patterns that I had growing up.
All these made me realize…That healing takes time.And as I go through the healing process…I won’t be guaranteed to be 100% free of hurt.And even if sometimes people may get tired of listening to me and giving me advice…Because they, too, are human…I should learn to forgive myself when at times, I still falter, feel pain, and get scared…And to remind myself to always… ALWAYS…Entrust everything to God…Who will never grow weary when I ask for His help.Linking to Soli Deo Gloria and On Your Heart Tuesday
